dear you,

at last, i've used up too much words until i've drained all meaning from them =) now i can leave my solutions at home, and we'd be ourselves...

i have to admit, the past has been dystopic.. and it did leave me broken in many places.. but the past is done, and though things have been taken away from me, other things grew back to take their place. something is always missing, but then it only makes things more real.

i just wish you the best in whatever other tasks you wish to take on.. i hope you find good people who will take care of you and who will be good to you, and i hope the people you are with right now really love you enough to care =), finally, i wish for you to be happy, no matter how overrated that concept might seem to you.. ^_^

someday, our roads will stop meeting and will start spinning around other journeys., when that time comes, i hope you will know in your heart that somewhere, however far away from you i may end up in, i'm still cheering for you and remembering you in all the little things..

for now, i'm just a handsbreath away =), and i'll be here for you as long as i possibly can.. or perhaps even longer than that..

take care and keep in touch...

always,
me

i have this recurring dream where i am not really me, just another entity trapped in another person's life. sometimes i step outside to break away from the shell that encloses me, but the freedom is temporary, and sonner rather than later, i am propelled back into this stranger's life.



this life isn't really so bad, but sometimes it just drives me crazy,

morning
knocks on my door
only to find me lost
in my slumber, dreaming my dreams
of you

Fri, 29 Nov 2002 17:14:10

lights underwater
casting moonbeams on our skins
reflect back sorrows
troubles we've cast to the wind
leave me i beg, let me die
leave me to be, let me cry

11-29-2002:16:22

2 am, the moon shines bright and i
scan the heavens for the
tiny gossamers of golden thread
shedding off their bright gazes

and you, infinitely beautiful,
infinitely far, and unreachable
blinded my skies with a
million spears of light

leaving me so soon, waiting
for three decades more
to come again

11.19.2002

sunsets align themselves through the trees
as you lay far away, weaving your dreams
across the patio of my recollection,

and while i watch the dust settle
on the streets that no one listens to,
i wonder about how it all was.

i think about the tears and the moonlight
on the crumbling admin building.

the silent prayers awaiting dusk
under the batibot.

the all knowing acacia whispering
the secrets that countless have shared
under its branches.

i remember the charcoal vendors
near the jeepney stop across sanjercasvil,
and their stony stares as you screamed
at my childishness in frustration.

the hot sauce tripping
on valentine's day at jca,
and the poem you let noone read.

sky rockets in flight..

serving two masters,
talking on the phone
and reading an essay

dunkin, movie marathon...

"here and there, old things
want to remind me of their existence,"

the night is waiting to claim me
in its utter stillness and melancholy.

and yet you refuse to leave and let me be...

tonight will be no different from any other.
i will be lost like so many others are lost
everyday.

"in the deepening shadows"

i will move like air,

"in between bridges on the highway"

and i will pretend not to hear.

"every pavement stone
echoing the music of your step."

eleventeen shots of tequila,
vodka
mule
southern comfort
baileys

this is therapy.

ndg.09.11.2002

catch my eyes tonight
lets paint with music and madness
and moonlight

im drunk with your wit
and your charm and your smile
(or maybe its just caffeine..)

and as i wish this night to go on forever
dawn breaks too soon
(you havent even sang that song)

i shall leave you once more
my court jester, my jeweler of wit
my secret friend

until one more night finds you smiling my way...
good night, sweet dreams,
good night

08.21.2002