the first poem for the new year

i saw you last night, your eyes were filled with stars
bright stars i could not see
lonely stars that have lost their meaning for me

i walked towards you but away from you
watching my madness fall
in between the places we dare not go

i love you still..
but with a heart that does not skip a beat when i hear your name
i love you still...
but with a love that has no more substance, no point, no purpose.

last night, you looked back at me
with a faint smile
nodding a greeting in the distilled silence

we blinked, at the exact same time,
and for a moment,

we are,
you and i

but you walked away under the hazy moonlight

and yes,
even in dreams,

you leave me.

01.05.2004.5.05.p.m.