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game of chance
Posted by poeticnook
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6/22/2005 04:46:00 AM
it's hard to fathom the reasons why things happen, or if things really happen for a reason at all, maybe we are just playing dice and no matter how hard we blow our wish on our palms, it doesn't really affect the probability of getting a double six or a double one.
my friend's father passed away seven hours ago. only a few days after her wedding. he seemed very much alive and happy two days ago as he escorted her to the altar. then today happened. she said that he has been sick for a long time now and it seemed he just waited for her to get married. i told her that at least one of his last memories is that he saw her walk off to a bright future.
sometimes i wonder what the future holds for me and for the people i love. i often lay awake on late nights wondering if what i did today would drastically change what might happen tomorrow. but most times i just try to comfort myself by thinking that today is yesterday's future, and so far, despite all my mistakes and all the things i tried to do right, it hasn't been that bad, yet. and even if they do crumble and fall to pieces, i can always choose to take the dice, wish hard, and let it roll again.
my friend's father passed away seven hours ago. only a few days after her wedding. he seemed very much alive and happy two days ago as he escorted her to the altar. then today happened. she said that he has been sick for a long time now and it seemed he just waited for her to get married. i told her that at least one of his last memories is that he saw her walk off to a bright future.
sometimes i wonder what the future holds for me and for the people i love. i often lay awake on late nights wondering if what i did today would drastically change what might happen tomorrow. but most times i just try to comfort myself by thinking that today is yesterday's future, and so far, despite all my mistakes and all the things i tried to do right, it hasn't been that bad, yet. and even if they do crumble and fall to pieces, i can always choose to take the dice, wish hard, and let it roll again.
