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13 past midnight
Posted by poeticnook
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5/04/2008 12:13:00 AM
today i resolve to be someone better. i've been spreading myself too thin in so many aspects of my life right now that i end up way below mediocre. this isn't even anywhere near who i ever was in my past lives. it's time to start being more squiggly.
last friday we had this workshop where we were made to choose which shape we liked best among the following:
it was obvious, i picked that one that looked like a strand of hair, because it was interesting and out of the ordinary. this may very well generalize the characteristics of all my other choices, or my affinity to unusually weird things. hmmm what does that say about me? the paper described me as spontaneous and fearful of boredom. how very apt. but it also meant that i'm disorganized, easily distracted, and frequently careless about deadlines. not ideal characteristics of a good employee.
but of course, every realization of a flaw brings with it the power to make the most out of the situation or turn it around into something constructive. and that's what i'm doing right now. i'm being creative. i can't make something work, so there's no use cracking my head open and picking out my brains, i would much rather go and do something else which has more probability of success. it's always tough to see the silver lining at times, but all it really takes is planting my own garden rather than waiting for someone to come and give me flowers.
i had a point to make when i started writing this crap, but somewhere along the way i lost it, it doesn't matter though. life is, that's all it needs to be. why complicate things. we all do our best, and it has to be good enough. if it isn't good enough, it has to do.
these are the thoughts that clutter my head when it's midnight and i'm home alone. gotta keep the ghosts away by staying up. =)
last friday we had this workshop where we were made to choose which shape we liked best among the following:
it was obvious, i picked that one that looked like a strand of hair, because it was interesting and out of the ordinary. this may very well generalize the characteristics of all my other choices, or my affinity to unusually weird things. hmmm what does that say about me? the paper described me as spontaneous and fearful of boredom. how very apt. but it also meant that i'm disorganized, easily distracted, and frequently careless about deadlines. not ideal characteristics of a good employee.
but of course, every realization of a flaw brings with it the power to make the most out of the situation or turn it around into something constructive. and that's what i'm doing right now. i'm being creative. i can't make something work, so there's no use cracking my head open and picking out my brains, i would much rather go and do something else which has more probability of success. it's always tough to see the silver lining at times, but all it really takes is planting my own garden rather than waiting for someone to come and give me flowers.
i had a point to make when i started writing this crap, but somewhere along the way i lost it, it doesn't matter though. life is, that's all it needs to be. why complicate things. we all do our best, and it has to be good enough. if it isn't good enough, it has to do.
these are the thoughts that clutter my head when it's midnight and i'm home alone. gotta keep the ghosts away by staying up. =)
