i have been parked for so long that i have forgotten how it is to rush headlong into uncertainty. i have become complacent, i have faded into mediocrity, just as i've always thought i would. i sit and do my job and wait for the next paycheck to tide me over and buy me little things that never matter or take me to places that leave no memory on me. i have forgotten how to scrounge the earth for the last piece of bread that would mean my sanity or my survival. i have become too sure, too proud, too comfortable in my own little world that sometimes i feel i have no more reason to wake up the next morning.

i need to do this. i need to leave my comfort zone. i need to get lost in order to discover new worlds. i need to say goodbye so that i may have more hellos to look forward to.

news flash: i just resigned from my job. i am now part of the millions whose only certainty lies on the next setting of the sun, wish me lots of love as i shoulder my pack, and find myself.

"So meet me and we'll drive this car away
we can leave right now what do you say
we'll head out for the wide and open spaces
if we can clear the way"
- Duncan Sheik "Start Again" -

sometimes you have to
jump over the bridge
without strings
to bind your feet
if only to know
how falling feels like
after standing too long
and how water tastes like
after experiencing a drought

sometimes you have to
leave your comfort zone
and take big risks
with no sure wins
just so you'd remember
how to rise up again
after every great fall
or how to appreciate what's left
after a very big loss.

sometimes you have to
get up, move on
grab you pack
and wander off
into worlds unknown
or get lost
in anonymity
if only to find
your home,
your life,
your self,
once more

sometimes you just have to..

let go.


02.09.2004.06.42.2004