with or without you

we all die a little death each time we hear news that a former flame from our past life has moved on and found a new love of their own to share their tomorrows with. it is but natural to feel a pang of sadness that can only be drowned by a pint of bellini. so tonight i made a toast for all those butterflies that once visited my garden and added color to my petals. they may have gone on to build their nests on someone else's backyard, but to me, they have always been part of the reason why the sun shines brighter with all the hues of the rainbow in this side of world.

a while ago i was talking to a friend about time machines and forgiveness and all the things in between. some people are lucky enough to afford second chances, while others live with the consequences of their mistakes for the rest of eternity. he is one of those whom fate has smiled upon, he can still correct his wrongs and find the one who got away. i'm happy for him and for everyone who are given another roll at the dice, another pick of the cards, they deserve a big congratulations. not everyone in this lifetime has the power to carve a new story out of the same yesterday.

so this one's for you, because i envy you.. i wish i too could spin the wheel and make things right once more, but i know that chapter of my book is locked and buried in the dungeons, i only have lessons to live with, and past loves to haunt me. thank you for making me a part of your life, that i know you will forget in time. but for now, while everything else is spinning in place around us, i'd just like you to know that it was a fun ride, not to be missed, and for all it's worth, even if it would appear cheezy and corny perhaps, i appreciate you, and everything you did for me. i wish you all the best. you deserve to be happy. now go get her, tiger. =)