using my right brain this time

when i was in nursery, i remember using my left hand to write and draw but then my teacher "corrected" me and told me to use my right hand, and so i learned to write and draw as a righty but with all other activities like sports, i'm still a lefty by heart. i've read somewhere that right handed people live longer and that there's a lot of prejudice against lefties. and so to be a well balanced person, i decided to be ambidextrous.

for the past couple of weeks i've been teaching my left hand to draw by enrolling in an art class. and last summer, i've trained my right hand to play tennis. so far, my quest for being truly ambidextrous is well underway. i guess this means i will live on the average and be equally prejudiced =).

i've always thought i was more of an artsy person than a techie, i liked writing, music, and drawing when i was growing up, i thought i would be a published poet or novelist, or a song writer, or a concert pianist or a charcoal painter but education drove away the creativity in me, and then i fell in love with numbers and incomplete gamma functions. i dreamt of one day making my own theorem or creating solutions for unsolvable math problems. but of course dreams bargained for reality, and sooner rather than later, i found myself working with computers.

on my sophomore year in university i got interested in slr photography and web design. i created personal homepages for friends and websites for school and small businesses. i thought my future would be in graphic design or animation, but then i got sidetracked again and woke up doing back-end server side stuff for a telecoms company. it was a good experience, it brought food on the table, but 10 years later i feel i missed out on some stuff i used to like. i guess i could have equally divided my time between work and hobbies but i just lost track of everything, where did all the years go? now i think i want a field that deals with or manages people, maybe a psychologist or a guidance counselor or a professor? this is how i know i'm getting older.. i'm getting weirder every day..

focusing on doing one thing at a time is a challenge for me, my mind always wanders and somehow i find something else to do when i'm supposed to be finishing another, so i end up with a couple of half baked, half started projects. now that i have time in my hands, i'm tying some loose ends and pursuing some paths that i've decided not to take back when i didn't really know any better. the sky is limitless, it stretches on to forever, so many possibilities yet to unfold, so many futures to choose from.

right now, i'm reading 2 samuel 18, reflecting on the passage and praying for revelation so i can share something in cg next week when i'm not feeling sick anymore, i'm also reviewing road sense for drivers so i can go on a road trip - from west to east, i'm also setting up eclipse and spring on mac just for fun, editing some photos and videos, composing a musical score in garageband, writing a short story, drawing composition on my sketchbook, designing my personal website, migrating my geocities pages before they close down, and wondering why i'm not getting any email or sms response from someone. that's how distracted and disorganized my brain is right now. to top it all off i just received instructions to finish a programming assignment in two hours.. a day after the deadline has passed.. obviously i need to check my email more often, such is my life without a mobile phone - totally disconnected from the world.. well almost..

ok i guess i have to load my ide, this is a sign to stop blogging..