what's in a number?

it's esp cycle once again and this should be fairly easy for me, a math major who's into numbers and figures and percentages, there's really nothing to it, the ranges are there, the factors are lined up, and all i actually need to do is plug the digits and submit them to my upline for approval. so what's holding me back?

it's just that these numbers just grew faces, and these faces have grown into people, and these
people have lives and families and hopes and dreams, and here i am putting a number on them.

so this is how it feels to grow a heart.